Emily Flippen says spilling secrets was pure personality, not strategy, on Survivor 50. The Season 45 alum tells TV Insider that her so-called inability to stay quiet is one of her regrets from her second time playing, and that she’s not sure that she would play Survivor again. Not because of anything negative from her experience this season, but rather because being a first-time returning player made her realize that, for her, the best Survivor experience is the first one.

Emily was one of two players eliminated in Survivor 50 Episode 11 on May 6. The second was Ozzy Lusth. While Emily could see her elimination coming, she says it was “heart-wrenching” to watch Ozzy’s blindside.

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